I have been in this situation before. I have lots ahead of me and I can’t seem to get my mind settles enough to just stick to one thing.
I have three math mid-term tests this unit. With the first one taken this last Friday I felt okay about taking a minor reprieve from intense studies to do some fun things.
Got a few flies tied for the march brown hatch coming up. Even a size 18!! We were possibly going to go fishing today up the middle fork, but a delay in the start of our day allowed us to do some much needed gardening. Peas and onions planted , rose bed cleaned up and three out of twelve raised beds Charlie proofed.
Which brings me to Charlie. My now 101 pound baby. It was just a year ago that Teddy passed away and I felt Charlie may have sensed a bit of my grief. He didn’t leave my side most of the weekend. Such a goofy puppy. He brings me lots of smiles and a bit of frustration. (A flip flop completely devoured by him).
As I tell you about my lovely weekend you are probably wondering what is her monkey mind then.
Well I can’t sleep. I just plain haven’t been able to fall asleep or stay asleep. The minute I place my head on the pillow my mind starts to go at a high rate of speed. Almost like a hamster spinning on its excerxise wheel.
I think a lot about work, school, things that need to get done around the house. My mom-and how her dementia has gotten worse and I need to get her moved into a safe place. I think about my children and hope, pray they are all happy. I think about evolving back into being a wife and will I be an okay wife? Just so many many things that distract me lately.